the dust has settled

so has dirt,  mud, jackson's bones and hal's ashes.  

i miss him and im sorry

I lit Hal’s candle last night. Then I dreamed about him. He was waiting at the curb when I drove off. I can’t remember why I had my own car. I thought I had my own destination, but when I got home, Hal was in a bed in the cabin, comfortable. What does it mean?